After a turbulent start to the year things got even messier when I found out I was pregnant.
It wouldn’t be news that was well received… by anyone. And it wasn’t.
(An explanation will follow in a later post but for now just know that even though pregnancies and children are blessings this just made shit get a lot more complicated for me).
THEN at 10 weeks during an emergency scan in A&E what I had assumed was a full bladder showing up on the sonogram turned out to be a second sac and then a second heartbeat.
A second baby.
WT actual F!!!!!!
Twins don’t run in my family. There have, literally, never been any twins in my family history EVER. And as far I know none on his side either.
Tears came. Not because I was happy but because for the first time, despite all the obstacles I knew I was going to face by going through with this pregnancy, I considered an abortion. I had come to terms with the fact that I’d have to go through a pregnancy and raise 2 kids without their father but now 2 had turned into 3. 3 children under 2. How was I going to manage that? How was I physically going to carry twins whilst looking after my one year old son? How the hell did I end up with twins??????
So, in usual Nemi style, I cried.
And when the sonographer, slightly awkwardly, told me that a termination was still an option. I cried.
After I broke the news to my family, who were already shocked and trying to come to terms with all the craziness I had been through in the last couple of months, I CRIED.
But in true Basri-family style, after their initial reaction, they told me no matter what I decided to do they would support me. My family are EVERYTHING.
I’m 21 weeks into my second pregnancy, a twin pregnancy.
How will I cope? I have a badass support system. I have determination. I have ambition. I’ll have 3 lives that depend on me! I will just HAVE to get through it and make the best out of this situation. Imagine the person I’ll become through this challenge.
Everything happens for a reason. That I know. So let’s see where this journey takes me.